Wednesday, July 31, 2024
I’ve become more attracted to simplicity. I return to the childlikeness of yesteryear. Before I quit my career in academia, I longed for simplicity. I longed for time for reflection, for play, and for creativity. I longed to drop responsibilities and to trust that I was being cared for.
I was very fortunate to have a fairly traditional childhood. I knew of some financial and familial problems growing up, but for the most part, the “behind-the-scenes” was unknown. I didn’t have to work to support my family or to take care of younger siblings. I didn’t have to “grow up the hard way.” I grew the simple way, on a bicycle, playing outside, going to school, going to grandma’s house – just being a kid.
As I matured, I fell into the trap of just being an “adult.” We all have to go through this hell, thinking that we have responsibilities and that we have so much to take care of. While on one level that is true, on the other I think it’s an illusion.
I have thrown myself into the arms of the universe. I’ve given up on the illusion that my doing, my actions, and my thoughts are holding the world together. And guess what, the arms caught me. You are at the mercy of something other than the idea of self, the concept of something you call “me.” Can you throw yourself into the arms of the unknown?
The creator is the creature. The creature is pretense, an ignorance that only thinks itself significant. You are the creator! You are creating unknowingly. One day, The Creator will awaken in the creature and the creature will realize its power and freedom. When that epiphany occurs, it’s as simple as being a kid. You can just ride your bike and play, leaving worries for the so-called adults.