Friday, February 24, 2023
For years, I didn’t realize that my thoughts were driving me nuts. I was always hot and bothered, but I thought it was circumstance that bothered me. But now I realize it was the constant commentary about those circumstances that got under my collar. My thoughts pestered and nagged at me. I thought I was tired of life, but I was simply tired of being bothered by my constant thinking. I simply had no peace.
Becoming aware of your thoughts is like waking from a dream. You come to a point where you realize you just don’t need to talk to yourself, all the time. Thinking can be voluntary. But for many, it’s so involuntary that their true self is lost in a dream of sorts.
You can be skeptical of what others say, and you can walk away from negative conversations. You can also be skeptical of what your chatty mind says, and in a manner of speaking, “walk away” from your own, negative chatter. Constant mental chatter eats away at the purity of your consciousness, that’s because, for most individuals, thought is unconsciously provocative, not voluntarily productive. It intrudes on everything. But you can stand guard of this. It takes a while to become aware of how much you chitchat with yourself. It takes even longer to disallow it to bother you, and even longer to finally stifle it. If you are bothered, it may be just as simple as being bothered by that nagging inner voice. Unconscious thoughts are triggering, telling you that something isn’t good; something is missing in your life, or that you “should be doing” or “should have done” something else. The universe never tells you that. The universe is quiet, yet contains deep love that is perceptible only when the mind has finally shut up. Be patient. Some people are “sleeping,” totally unaware of all of their unconscious thoughts.