The dissolving heap.

Monday, January 20, 2025

I’m not the only one who gets to be in an abundant universe while everyone else is “struggling.” If I am really honest, I must confess that I have always looked down upon others, yet secretly felt mediocre. This is another definition of insanity.

It seems hard to reimagine yourself as a prince or princess of incomparable value. We need metrics for value, so this gets tricky. If you’re like me, you may think of yourself as average and as someone who has always had to “work hard.” This is an uphill view of life. In a recent conversation, I confessed my struggle. I confessed that I never felt that I exuded natural, easy down-flow talent. Everything seems uphill for me, while I looked downhill at others. Strange.

The only reason why things feel uphill is because you’re somewhere towards the bottom of the heap. You might be mid-heap, and you look down upon those who are at the bottom. They have it bad, don’t they? Then you have reverence and awe for those at the top of the heap.

Let me tell you about this heap. It’s fecal. We backfill what we don’t know with garbage and call it a heap of progress, then we put people in various locations on this large, mountainous cow patty. The metric is you. The placement of individuals is you. The heap is you. Why don’t we just dissolve the heap altogether?

All lives are flowing with the current, yet they are bottomless. No one is moving uphill, no one is over the hill, and certainly no one is at the bottom. The hill is an illusion because we are all in the center of the universe wherever we go. A free flow feels downward, yet with no bottom. That’s life’s natural direction, and we’re all on this down-flow trajectory towards endlessness. The caste system is dissolved.