Friday, March 15, 2024
Feeling stuck, frustrated, or that you cannot determine a viable direction for your life might be the result of self-wounding, neglect, and always reaching outward for what you think you need. I lived for years without realizing that. I did not like who I was and tried to find better versions of myself in my work and in other earthly pursuits. I had no idea what was in me, a wounded soul.
Inside all of us is nothing but a child. When you begin to awaken to your core truth, you notice how self-abusive you are. You may have abused your inner child for so long, they are now isolated and quiet. They’re shriveled up in the corner of your soul, destitute, atrophied, and frozen. You cannot demand that this innocent presence awaken and tell you what it wants – it’s wounded. It has to be loved, sweet-talked, spoken to affectionately, and coaxed out with patience. A wounded child won’t open up to harshness, demands, and threats. They only open up only to love, play, and asking nicely. No more demands on yourself! Being hard-nosed is bad parenting. You are both parent and child – can you see?
The spirit, while remaining childlike forever, has to develop and grow. The inner dwelling must be approached suavely, not confronted. The only way to get Truth out of hiding is by loving who you are gracefully. The child-spirit will not be enlivened if pushed by the ego. The parent in you must get quiet and observant. Ask yourself what you want – probably unconditional acceptance. Apologize for the neglect and abuse. The inner spirit is delicate – it won’t whisper ideas or desires to you, or become alive if your self-talk is abusive. Does your inner child feel safe to come out and play? If you feel stuck, it’s because you cannot transcend your self-hatred.
Happy birthday A.A. I love you more than life itself.