Friday, September 15, 2023
When you’re indecisive, it means you’re unsettled. There is some kind of unease in you, and you lack confidence. When you’re confident, it means you’re settled. There is an ease in you and you are certain. So when you’re settled, does that mean you’ve made the right decision? When I got married, I was sure. I was settled, and I was peaceful. I just knew it was the “right” decision, which means I thought I would be led to pleasure and gain. After all, who intentionally makes decisions that lead to displeasure and loss? My marriage ended in utter failure and pain that I cannot describe it to you. But it was still the best thing I could have done. It wasn’t what I wanted, but what I needed. Had I known the pain, I would have avoided it; however, the spiritual gain was what I needed. Nobody thinks that’s valuable. That’s why life has to show you.
Decision-making is just a dramatic interplay of mind. Decisions are just arbitrariness disguised in conflicted feelings. You’re headed into the blackness no matter how you feel. You can’t lean on a feeling. They’re like clouds.
I’ve made peaceful decisions that turned disastrous, and I’ve made rash decisions that paid off. Your future is written. The supremacy of the universe doesn’t abdicate to the inferior. The higher order doesn’t submit to the lower order, so your so-called free choice is simply an unfolding discovery. It feels like free choice, just like it feels like I’m writing these words, but they are revealed through the medium I know as myself. I’m discovering them as I write. So, you’re turning pages on a book called “My Life.” Just turn the page. You can’t spoil the ending. You can only experience it when it comes. Why not just enjoy the unfolding? Play your part with dignity and marvel at the story. It’s brilliant!