Tuesday, January 20, 2026
I started working on trust issues. I realized that I didn’t trust myself. I didn’t trust myself to remember. I didn’t trust myself to wake up on time. I didn’t trust myself around sweets. When others were drinking, I didn’t trust myself to refuse, knowing I really didn’t want to drink.
I didn’t trust myself enough to quit a job without a backup plan. I didn’t trust myself with money. I didn’t trust that I could do what I set my mind to do. I didn’t trust myself to be happy without the stuff I thought I wanted so desperately.
So, I started to work on my trust issues. In order to do that, however, I had to make bold moves. For example, I had to trust that I would remember stuff and stop obsessively writing everything down and trying to keep it “juggled” in my mind. I had to show myself I could wake up on time. I had to show myself I could trust myself around sweets.
Slowly, I learned that I was trustworthy. Then step two – trusting others.
I realized that trusting myself meant trusting everything. This was the hardest part – trusting those who didn’t seem trustworthy. But it worked. I placed my trust “outside” of myself which only signified that I was all of it.
Trusting yourself means trusting everything, everyone, your situation, timing, and everything in between. Trust issues are not just about you, the so-called individual encapsulated in a body. You are everywhere. You are the environment, other people, your situations, and all of it. If the universe is the fullness, you are the fullness of the universe in partiality. Where the part is, so is the whole. The whole thing, the entire kit and caboodle can be trusted, even death.
You can even trust the author of these words, which is essentially you.