Friday, January 23, 2026
What am I grateful for? What do I want? Who am I? What’s my purpose? Two other good questions are: Am I having fun yet? What am I scared of?
How much does it cost to enjoy life? Recently I discovered a little rain is all it took. I’m writing this in June. The earth was scorched with a sweltering, dry May. After my 4:30a.m. jog, before the sun comes up, I do calisthenics in the backyard. As it rained, I removed all of my clothes and jumped for joy. Dancing like an idiot.
To experience the fullness of life, to be euphorically alive, one needs a downpour and a birthday suit. Hands raised to the sky, I was the earth. I was nature, dancing like a naked fool. Nobody could see. Nobody could join. I created my own magic. Who needs anything?
What am I afraid of? Most likely, I’m afraid to be seen. I’m afraid to be known for who I really am. I’m afraid to be criticized, rejected, and humiliated. I’m afraid to run out. I’m scared to be nothing. Being scared is always related to scarcity. But if I need nothing, then I am nothing.
I might be seen in my most vulnerable moments, ones we all experience – being on the toilet, being at a loss for words, being without clothes, without the means to care for myself, being without an identity, being without a friend or lover, being without anything. Just me. Innocent.
Why are we scared to be innocent? It’s because we have a scarcity mindset. If you can experience life to the fullest in your birthday suit, alone, and in a downpour, you lack nothing. In the fullest sense, you’re a nobody. It’s just you.
Is that enough? It is for me. That’s just me, though.