Monday, October 14, 2024
Since as long as I can remember, I’ve been sexually attracted to men. This probably goes back to around age 12. From 12 to 28, I questioned that Truth, yet it never went away. It wasn’t until I surrendered to it that I realized what truth was.
Desire is your truth. It’s fine to question, but then release. I’ve tried to shake desires, flat-out deny them. The circumstances (everything and everyone around me, even my own thoughts) say “No way, Jose.” When I contemplated my sexuality in the 80s and 90s, everything outside, including my own swirling thoughts, would have said, “No way, Jose.” But the inside persists, counter-arguing, “Why not, Jose?” The Inner Being will win.
When I examine my inner desires, and I try to shake them, deny them, or pretend they’re not possible, my Inner Being nags. These desires are yours, and you cannot shake them. I cannot shake my sexuality, and I cannot shake my inmost desires. So what do you do? You release them by allowing yourself to have them. The outside says “No,” but the inside doesn’t care – you want what you want.
If you don’t give yourself your inmost desires, you’ll be miserable. What’s the point of wanting if you only deny and doubt? What benefit comes from thinking “I can’t?” It’s miserable to not give yourself what you want. What you want is guiding you to happiness and bliss, but we’re too busy wallowing in what we don’t want. Why say, “No way, Jose” to your Inner Being? Let yourself have it. Even though the mind, the circumstance, “the world,” the evidence, and everyone around you says “No way, Jose,” pay them no attention. Put your attention on seeing your desires come to fruition. No more denial. You’re getting in the way, Jose!